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SUMMARY OF THE FLIM FLAMM.

2009-09-24T13:35:09Z

So as you all know by now (or if you dont wow you are certainly a bit late) I broke up with Flim Flamm as I will now call him.
Originally it came up and asked if he was bored with me. It then resulted in an honest answer, finally. He told me, that our relationship and my personally formed basically into the description of "stale". Now here's the back story that needs to be given for everyone to understand why this frustrates me so much. For the past 5 months, I've been in a relationship where I tried so hard to spice it up. I'd bring up conversations, call him on the phone, send him adorable text messages, take him to unusual but cool places, and even lose my virginity to him. Yet he refers to "our relationship as stale" if anything, my friends, I should be the one calling him "stale". You wanna know why? Because all those phone calls and texts I never got a reply too, ever. Because when I'd take him to a broadway show or to places like St.Marks, He'd be confused or get scared. Though my other boyfriends have had their faults similar to this, neither of them where afraid of St.Marks place. I always question myself why I didn't break up with him after that horrible date in the city, where he didn't want to go on the Toys R Us ride, because the "line was too long" and he got too tired and hot to walk 1 fucking block in the pre- July weather. Where he didn't want to take me to an actual nice place to eat but rather the shitty food at Kinos (not saying its bad its just nothing i actually like to eat). I did so much stuff to try and keep things happy and good, I said yes to everything he said, I almost never disagreed. But what do I get for this? that our relationship is stale.
and guess what? Well losing my innocent womenly rights to him, sucked balls. He didn't know what he was doing, even though he claimed I'd have the time of my life, and that whole speech about "why would he been asking so many time if he didn't really wanna do it just with me" bull.
The best part, he got tired before we even really got into it, fail yes? At least i got something out of it, that i can never have to call myself a 40 yr old virgin. But what does he get left with? Oh that he had a stupid first time and didn't even came. Yeah I'll probably complain he dated a fatty, but that was his choice, the idiot.
It just stuns me how much of an idiot I was to continue being with him even though I knew he probably wasn't into as much, and same with me. But I crave physical contact, its a problem I have, that I'll almost do anything to have a guy kiss me or put his arm around me. But just having someone devote attention to you, its something I always seek and can't seem to let go of. But I need to start to learn to actually develop a relationship before anything further blooms, then I can actually find someone.
Now though, the goal is to stay single till I'm done with school pretty much. Yeah, it'll be somewhat depressing, but I need to focus on my career, since I feel being with Andy has made my work terrible since I was focusing more on him then my art. Now I can devote myself to the craft of filmmaking and make it fucking fabulous, just like me.
So this weekend (I'll be at the con both Saturday and Sunday now), lets celebrate the fact now I can focus on my real family, my friends.
Let's do a Betsey Johnson cartwheel shall we?

Thank you for finally expressing what us fans have felt this anyone ever made fun of him...

2009-07-07T18:43:18Z

"Nothing was strange about your daddy.... what was strange was the things your daddy had to deal with"

On what has happened....

2009-06-26T13:31:50Z

I'm currently typing with my fingers on the brink of shaking, even though the news sunk in the moment it happened, it definitely came to a shocking realization as I sat in the bed I was sleeping in last night, trying to think of something positive to get my mind off of it, when I came to another realization... he's dead and for the most part its real.
I know some of you may giggle, you might cry, and or you might not even give a shit about this news. But let me tell you about Michael. He was a man that inspired me to do a lot, more then any of you could ever imagine. He was a man that purely magical, so much that even to this day, the things he did mind boggles me. Everything he did was magical... his smile, his dancing, his words, his whole aura. I know everyone has different opinions about him, you might think he is completely strange, a freak what have you. But then you obviously don't know who he actually was... He was more then just Thriller, Moon walker, Smooth Criminal, and King of Pop... He was a man with a brilliant yet complex mind, and also an all around beautiful and good natured person.
Michael Jackson was such an important person that shaped me into the human being I would become... as many have said he was the soundtrack to my life and more. He was a man with such an imagination, it would make one that if you got to know him the way I did almost cry, because he was unlike any other.

Please, do me a favor. When you begin to think about this man today or the next passing days... do not make a joke about him.... do not refer to him as "wacko jacko" or whatever other names he has been called... think of him as a human being that was so talented, beautiful, creative and beyond anything that any other human has been on this planet. But also think of him as a person that longed to find acceptance in the world, but no matter what he did to try and make himself perfect in his and others eyes, no one would accept him. I hope the passing days proves to all of you that this was an incredible creature that "moonwalked" this planet with us, he wasn't just another Tabloid article waiting to happen, he was much more then that.

Michael, I know you are out there somewhere. You are with everyone of us that believed in your magic, knew that you were special, and would always know that you will always be the King of Pop, Rock, Soul and everything else in between. You taught me so much, ever since I saw Black or White when I was 3, you were the only one that made me want to be myself, without any question. I knew I could do more then I was told by professionals, who said I was doomed to a simple non social life. You gave me hope and courage. Now I will carry the wisdom that your impact has given me with me everyday, and always remember that it was you who did it.

I wish that I had gotten to meet you, but I felt like I've known you my whole life.... and with that, I know when I go up to wherever you are now... you'll be one of the first people I see and hug ever so tight.

Forever may your new star in the sky sparkle baby.... We know you'll be the one dancing and twinkling in the sky the brightest.

PLEASE EVERYONE READ THIS ARTICLE

2009-06-05T11:31:02Z

My dear friend Mary's brother died on the recent days and the day afterwards was given a foreclosure notice, possibly leaving her
amazing family without a home during this horrible time that they already have to deal with.
I please ask that you read this article and post it where-ever you see fit so that people get the message of how unfair our system is,
and maybe in someway we can find someone that can help these fantastic people.
http://www.philly.com/inquirer/columnists/daniel_rubin/46890867.html

Writer's Block: Rabbit Rabbit!

2009-06-01T18:00:23Z

It's the first day of the month. If you could have one wish come true this month, what would it be?

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I wish my boyfriend would be done with school, come over to my house, and sing random indie songs on the guitar... example found in JUNO.

1,2,3,4

2009-05-16T04:47:06Z

So today I finally had the date.
To conclude in the best and most simple way, I have a boyfriend that is so amazing, he's the most gentle and caring guy I've ever dated. He really cares about how I feel and worries about my opinions which is amazing, and well, after 3 years finally I got to kiss someone again, and by god it was definitely in my top 5 greatest kisses I have ever experienced. The most interesting part was, this was his first kiss ever. I've been in this situation before and trust me, it usually doesn't end so well, because these guys have never done this before meaning they think kissing is like pecking. Andy obviously though must have some good education in some way of how to properly kiss a women cause damn that was great and so romantic the way it just, happened.
We were in Target, and before we had possibly talked about going into his car. We then just ended up there, listening to a mix CD I made him, he looked back at me, our eyes met and he said "can i?" and I turned my head away, not because I didn't want to but because I was scared, and before I knew it, he slowly turned my face around and... waa la. It was perfection.
The best part about it was, how gentle it was. I find first kisses are never gentle, they are good but awkward and rough cause half the time people don't know how the other wants to be kissed. He knew right away. It was so tender and I didn't feel nervous at all. I just felt in bliss, and then for like 40 minutes we just laid next to each other, kissed and talked. It was great.
Pretty comfy car, good space, and just amazing to be by him,

I felt so comfortable next to him, and usually its hard to feel that comfortable with someone right away, but I just did.
all I can say is ...I can't wait to hopefully see him next Thursday.

Phantomie Goodness !~

2009-03-12T01:28:33Z

This week is barely off the ground..and I already feel like I've been threw the work of about three years because of this

god damn audio project. I think in the next 2 weeks, I'll be dead in some form. I really want to have a lolita meet up after I'm done with quarter so I can breath without having to think about the next goddamn session that needs to be done, or dialog that
needs to be synced.
Which leads me to this bit of news, Phantom Of The Opera seems to be having some sort of special where the tickets are
as low as $26.50... yeah that's right, in a just $30.
They aren't the best seats in the world, but that show is good no matter what in my opinion.
Interested anyone?

Writer's Block: Robotic

2009-01-26T11:42:53Z

Who (or what) is your favorite fictional robot?

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THERE YOU GO ASTRO BOY ~ ON YOUR FLIGHT INTO SPACE ~ ROCKET HIGH THRU THE SKY ~ WHAT ADVENTURE SOON YOU WILL FACE ~ :D

My Imaginary Boyfriend Meme

2009-01-20T03:02:51Z

I'M MAKIN A MEME.
How it works....
1) Under a cut type in your top 10 imaginary boyfriends. This list can include: celebrities, fictional characters, musicians, actors, dead or alive. Examples: Johnny Depp, Robert Pattison *I don't care if I got his name wrong*etc.
2) Please include a picture along a tiny two sentences or more description of why they are on the list.
3) Then tag at-least 5 people from your friends list to make a list of their own ! :) HAVE FUN !

EDIT:
Ok... So I changed #8 and #6... just cause people are being honest so I wanted to put two more answers !

10. Hiro Mizushima

I only about a little under a year fell in love with Mr.Mizushima, his work is fantastic, and he has an adorable speaking voice. I really will watch him in any drama he appears in, just because I know it'll be fantastic.

9. Hizumi from D'espairs Ray

Hizumi is just all kinds of beautiful. I think what's most appealing is umm.. waking up and see that your laying on that chest.

8.Seth Rogen

He's a cute chubby boy, that can make my laugh. I adore more normal looking guys like him, and I dig all his movies.

7. Yul Brynner

Here is some old school right hotness. He is probably one of the sexiest men from the 1940s - 50s of all time. I believed him to always look the same and just be so handsome and youthful. Also, he made bald really beautiful.

6. Robert Downey Jr

Well now that I won't be killed for typing this.. wow isn't he beautiful?
He's such a brilliant actor, and again, can sing ! *see a common theme in this? I like triple threat kind of guys*
Also, He was the best part of Tropic Thunder by far.

5. Patrick Wilson

Just an all american, boy next door kind of guy. He can sing, act and kick butt in Watchmen? Who wouldn't want him?

4. Ralph Fiennes

Come on, He can act and sing too, and he was also in about 5 of the nominated movies at the Golden Globes this year. Can we say yum?

3. Michael Jackson 1986 - 1995

The smile, the talent, he *was* just perfect to me :)

2. Takanori Nishikawa

Um, do I need to honestly talk about this? Yeah.. I didn't think so.

1. Edward Norton

He's my baby, he really is. He can really do no wrong in my eyes. He's just all amounts of gorgeous and again, triple threat :)

PEOPLE THAT NEED TO DO THIS MEME
1.poodleparade
2.amanikitty
3.communistmuffin
4.sweetieloli
5.curly_b
6.vapor_saturine

and anyone else that wants to do it :)

ongaku_chan @ 2008-12-13T07:26:00

2008-12-13T12:34:37Z

Today is the tea party <3

But I was supposed to have the day COMPLETELY off.
YEAH RIGHT :S I'm such a sucker for believing.

So this new girl at work named Erika comes over and is like ARE YOU FREE SATURDAY, TAKE MY SHIFT. and I was like No i've requested that day off for like MONTHS so i'm sorry. Then she says "BUT MY AUNT DIED."
Now listen.... Here's the thing .... I kind of think she's lying :/ not gonna lie to y'all myself but after I thought about it, she didn't mention it at first... and she kind of *in the background* only told me and very quietly ... but maybe it was true her aunt died. I started to think at the time that maybe it was true... and btw... IF IT WAS TRUE, MY BOSSES HAVE NO HEART. They honestly think WAYYYY too much about the fucking company... and the shift is only for like what.. 4 hrs?

and I don't mean to be a bitch but, if your aunt died... she looked a bit TOO happy for that shit :/

but i took it under the condition that i could only stay till 1:30 *which is already stretching it since it basically only gives me a half hour at most to get ready and make the train*

So now I must take a shower, organize what I will wear for the tea party, go to work with poodle hair and then rush to the train for some girl that might be lying about her aunt being dead.

Oh and talked to Stephan again last night. old times.. wow... they return and hit you like a bag of bricks.

but life goes on :)

I JUST CANT WAIT TO SEE MY GIRLS <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

DS: EVERYTHING MUST GO. AP DOLLY SKIRT

2008-11-04T15:25:28Z

Rules/Information:
~Shipping from NY
~PAYPAL ONLY.
~No Holds. No Trades.
~I'd like to stay with only shipping in the US, but if someone outside of it is willing to pay the shipping then I'll take it.
~Coming from a non-smoking but pet filled house.
~ All Items have had little to no use and are in new condition.
~ With every US purchase I'll be giving including coupons for Bath and Body Works *the store I work at*

Angelic Pretty

Dollyhouse Skirt in Pink

*In proof of purchase picture the detachable bow isn't in it BUT I do have the detachable bow, I just I'm not as big a fan of it on the skirt itself so it isn't in the proof picture.
Price: BEST OFFER.
Size:
Waist 76 cm about 29.5 inches
Length 22 inches

Everything else has been sold ~

A QUICK UPDATE

2008-10-16T08:59:33Z

+ I have a shit load of homework --- the majority I shall do on the train
+ I have to stay again till 5:15 ;;_;; SCARY. But at least Joey might be in one of my classes :D
+ Nigel aka The Metal Kid from orientation walked me from class to my subway yesterday with his arm around me. It was very sweet, the entire time I was giggling, though he's got FLIRT MACHINE written all over him.
+Today I'm most likely going to wear lolita because I'm sick and tired of "melting in" with all the fashion students who though have impectable style, none of them are a true individual. They all are secretly annorexic or have an anger management problem except for a few of them which are sweet.

and my picture for the day:

Nigel kept making that face at me. Takanori is much better at doing this face.

In honor of the Mouse ----

2008-09-11T02:45:32Z

So Disney is so close I can taste it --- !
In honor of that I decided to post some lovely Disney Love Crossover videos that I adore <3

I'm obsessed with watching these videos, because one some of them have excellent editing skills , some are really romantic and others are just EPIC FAIL. I'll only post the best though. :DDD

Pocahontas x The Beast "Black Roses Red"
Also --- this song is just beautiful <3

Ariel x Quasimodo

The first Crossover AMV I ever saw <3 Still a classic in my eyes :D

Tulio (Road to Eldorado AKA NOT DISNEY) x Aurora
The editing of this video is FUCKING AMAZING. Seriously I was speechless while watching it.
and it's the best Radiohead song PERIOD. It kind of can't be beat.

Mulan x Aladdin
"What Hurts The Most"
;;__;;; REALLY FUCKIN SAD.

Oh and also in celebration ---
A video of my favorite Disney World ride !!

It's The Winnie The Pooh Ride
It's your run of the mile Dark Ride but it's soo cute <33333
I do wish we had one more like Tokyo's version , where the animatronics are more alive and seemed to have a lot of detail but I can live with ours that our giant pieces of PVC flying in the air except we still get the pooh flying over your head thing that they do <3
Ok yeah --- I am such a nerd.
ENJOY <3

YEAH

2008-08-27T12:16:48Z

I'M GETTING A REALLY NICE PAYCHECK <3

Lolita Events Schedule (AKA I LOVE SUMMER)

2008-07-07T17:19:16Z

July 18th or 19th : Lolita NYC Meet up
July 24th ???? : Meeting an out of towner loli
August 7 - 11th :OTAKON WEEKEND
August 31st: Lolita Tea Party

damn...I'm gonna be SO buissy

ongaku_chan @ 2008-07-02T20:30:00

2008-07-03T00:36:13Z

Just worked on the Hush Sound video contest with Izzy, Lindy and surprise, GABE TOO !
guess what? I'm singing on it :3
So I should be getting done with them babies really soon !!

Snakes Like Theeeee Converse

2008-07-01T00:54:34Z

Gotta tell you all who don't know about my friends Snakes Like Converse.
They consist of my friends Izzy and Lindy, both the main (and possibly only) members of this amazing and scandalous band !
Taking inspiration from that of the great Academy Is.., Switchfoot and other fabulous fellows, These girls dominate with sweet tunes and haunting lyrics that provoke the feels you might have had as a youngster going through middle school.
Please support them (and myself, as I just filmed both our first music videos)

http://www.myspace.com/snakeslikeconverse
The song we filmed for was If You Need Time Bring Bombs
It's adorable, catchy in the odd sort of way and has a lot of heart (which basically describes the band as a whole)

Enjoy them, love them, and I swear they are gonna be the next big thing !

The headache increases, but working with these girls was so worth it !

You are invited: Meet Up May 24th

2008-05-06T23:19:47Z

Finally the details are set !

Date: Saturday May 24th 2008
Time: 11:30 outside of Temptation Teahouse in Mount Kisco New York
Events: Lunch at Temptation Teahouse, Shopping at stores around Mt.Kisco especially Yogi's Paw and some dessert at the cafe downstairs in Borders (including some of my homemade cupcakes)
Bring: Yourself, your cutest lolita outfit, anything you'd like to show (your favorite volume of GLB maybe :3?)
, a camera if you have one (because of course photo shoots galore), money (really please bring, we want everyone to have fun and feel comfortable) and if you like to bake please it'd be great to have a treat to eat.

Important info: The way lunch will work is basically pay for what you eat and I'll be paying for my meal + the tip (unless one of you lovelies offer !!)
Also, if you think you can come and or are interested could you PM me your address so I can send you a formal invitation that will include possible directions and my cell phone and other important numbers and a formal letter to make this first time meeting sound even more special.

Disclaimer: If you are just getting into lolita and don't exactly have a coordinate, you can come anyway ! we want everyone that is just getting into or has been a lolita fan for a while to be welcome into this new community !

Hope to see some of you there , can't wait !

xposted to nylolitas

Me, a bit more lyrical

2008-02-12T10:54:01Z

I've decided to delete my fan girly post about Takanori-sama coming to New York because I wanted to put it in better words and have everyone understand how important this is to me.
The first time I heard Takanori was when I watched the animation Ruroni Kenshin, and heard Heart Of Sword. Though Heart Of Sword is no where near a favorite song title in my heart, it's certainly a special tune for it being the song to break my TMR and Jpop virginity. That was in 6th grade, so actually I have to thank the Rosevalley family for helping me find Takanori...without finding him.
Then came my whole entire introduction to extreme anime fandom, with my first anime convention. That's when I heard more T.M.R and then came his first arrival to the United States...I desperately begged my mother to take me in 2003 to see him...but that sadly never came to pass because of our financial situation. Then another annoucement of him coming to the US...except in a couple other side of the country that I could never travel to..so I never saw him. Yet my fandom grew stronger ! I kept Takanori's revolution alive, while my other friends in the jrock fandom didn't understand, when it seemed like I was forcing them to watch my Takanori DVDs and they would become incredibly bored. So then I fell out of the fandom, fearing my lose of friendship.
Then I was introduced to tmrevolutionist, which in a way has become a second life and family for me. Because all and most of the people I have met I have kept in touch and feel a strong friendship with them. We might not see each other everyday or even talk to eachother in a 2 year or more or less span, but I think the TMR fandom is filled with the best fans ever.
Now Takanori is coming to NEW YORK and like I've said to most, my life will be complete now that I will see him in person. I probably won't get to meet him but at least being in his presence is good enough for me.
Thank you Takanori, you are forever my inspiration and I will keep your revolution shining !

Love you forever Takanori Nishikawa <3

Birthday High : Game Over

2008-01-28T11:28:19Z

So guess what? I'm officially 18.
I'm legal in all 50 states.
This birthday instead of it being mostly merry was also filled with life lessons such as, my family is filled with mentally unstable lonely people, i have a real family (my friends) and a biological family (who i mostly hate)
and that well the weight lose is working, I can finally look at pictures of me and think wow I dont look really fat anymore.

On to party pictures !!!

i adore this picture of me soo much!

other peoples pictures ... !!

FUN LOLITA FUN !!!

what I got :

The Wii

Dialga loves DDR on the wii <3
Down In The Valley and Pirates 3 DVD
New printer/scanner/copier <3
TONS OF YOGI'S PAW JEWELERY
many Itunes gift cards
monies <3
and a lot more...but my favorite (other then the wii?)?
A NEW LOLITA DRESS !!! It's basically the one from NYAF but long sleeves and very aristocratic <3
very happy...thanks everyone for an amazing birthday !!!!